Day by day, I've cried all by myself. I don't know whether it is worth or not. But I can't hide the sadness that I felt all the time. And at the same time, I don't want other people to see the tears that I dropped on my face. I just don't want to hurt myself AGAIN. I really do love this feelings. And yes, I do want this feelings forever. Ha, I even don't know what to do right now. Should I wait for you or just give up ? But at the same time, I'm worried that I will hurt myself by leaving you. Because trust me, I will always remembering and missing you. Is this the way it should be ? I'm waiting for something that will never be mine. Hm, I take it. But please God, give me the strength for me to stand after this. I don't know whether I strong enough to face it. I'm not ready to leave you. Now, I've two choice to make. To go on or leave you ? Think again, if I go on. I will hope something that I will never get. And if I let you go, I will suffer from missing and thinking about you. Ah, I don't know what to do. I don't want to regret again after this. Please, I want this feelings too much. Can I have it ? And its okay if this it is the way it should be. I don't mind take and through it. I've pray to God for the strength to face it. And I hope this tears is worth for this matter. I love all the time. And I thank you for the happiness that you gave me. I think this is the time for me to leave you. But I can't ! Why, why ? I've really appreciate the happiness that you gave to me. I will remember everything. Our moments and memory together. Your smile, your laugh, your sweet face, your beautiful lullaby voice. All of it. It will the last one for me. Yes, it will. And this mean I have no hope for you to be mine one day. Once again, thank you)),: