You all know what it feels like when you hurt right ? Cry or die ? That's the only choice you had. Choose one. Hm, I choose both. Last night was the worst night ever for me. I can't sleep. I went to bed at 12 AM. Then, I woke up at 3 AM and stayed up late until 5 AM with tears. I felt so hurt inside me. I don't know what to do. And if can, I wanna hug someone and cry on her shoulder. Tell her everything that I felt inside here. Hm, I know I'm not perfect. But nobody is. Want to know why I cried ? It a long story. But I can't keep it anymore. It so painful. One whole day I kept it inside me heart.
It hurts when people said bad things about you right ? And none of it was true. That why I cried. I already gave up to live. And I'm sick to go through all of this. If I go away from everyone, is it right ? I don't have to feel hurt anymore. I will not hear people humiliated me anymore. Yes, that what on my mind now. But I prayed to Allah so that I will always be strong to go through all of this. I know Allah is testing me. And nothing can compare His justice. Right now, what I'm gonna do is be strong and never stop pray to Allah. Seriously, I'm tired with these tears. I've got exam to go through. And it important. Stop disturbing and hurting me. I want to focus on my exam. I don't want this problems keep on haunting me. Someone please help me. I'm just be patient and strong with all of this. Hm, if death is my only destiny then Allah please help me )':