Is this how my life should be ? Now I already know the truth. Thank you for everything syg (': I'm so sorry. But I'm not strong anymore to go through all of this. People keep knocking me down to make me feel worse. Am I destined to be in this way of life ? Being blamed, tortured and humiliated by people ? Am I to dishonorable to you guys until you guys insulting me in this way ? Hm, only God knows. I don't want to get in trouble with you guys. I take all your ' bad ' words to me with an open heart. Maybe this is a test for me. Guys, I don't wanna stop you guys from talking about me. Keep it on. I forgive you guys even you didn't ask for it. Just want to prepare before I go away. Sincerely, I'm weak. And dear friends of mine, I'm not the same me anymore. You'll never see her laughter and smile like before. She already gave up to live. Is this how her life would be, she rather die ! Sincerely. Because you guys will never understand what I've been through. And that why I cried last night.
Dear ' friends ',
I just can't believe that you would do this to me. All this while I thought you sincerely want to be friend with me. But I was wrong. Thank you for your ' pretending ' supports, smiles and everything that you did to me. I've really appreciated it. I wish we can be friend but I guess not. Because I don't want a friend who's pretend to be a FRIEND and humiliate me to other people. And hey, I know I'm not perfect like you are. I'm just an ordinary girl that God created me. I know He always here with me. I never stop believe and pray to Him. I gave everything to Him. Because He knows the best. So friends, stay away from me and stop pretending. I just don't want to have a ' FAKE ' friend in life. I rather been humiliated than to have a fake friend like YOU ! I'm sorry to say this. I just can believe you did this to me. Anyway, I forgive you.
To everyone out there, forgive all of my mistakes and wrongdoings. I'm not a perfect person. And every human make mistakes. Hope you'll forgive me. I already forgave you guys.
Allah, thank you for the strength that you to me. I never stop pray to you. You're the Almighty. And You knows everything in this world. Thank you. But dear Allah, if I already gave up to live. Please, give me the strength to through all of this. And You knows what best for me. If death is my destiny, that I'm ready. And I accept it with all my heart.
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