Finally, I got the chance to met you today AHI (':If only I have the guts to express my feeling towards you. But why it is so complicated even to tell the truth ? Every time I'm with you, I'm speechless & my heart beats faster than before. If only I could speak out & talk to you as usual like I did to my other friends. But when I'm around you, I felt different. Sincerely, I want to appreciate our last moments together. Me & you. After this, I will be far away from you. Who's gonna look after you ? Who's gonna share all your crazy little talks ? Haha, sometimes I felt like I wanna slap my face for not telling the true feeling of me to you. It not that I don't want to start it but I'm afraid. Afraid of what you're going to say. Afraid of what you would think ? And most of all, afraid of losing you. Dear A, I don't wanna lose you. I want to always be with you. Share every moments with you. But in the end, I don't feel like we appreciate it. Can I have you forever & always ? I'm scared of letting you go. I'm scared I'm hurting myself if I let you go. No, I don't want to do that.
My dear, I will always love you. As you said, always & forever. And it will always be. For your information, I can't open my heart other than you. You're the one who came when I didn't believe in love. You showed up guide me about love. And I will appreciate what had you give to me. Thank you A. Thanks for being such a good friend & lover. Even we're not lover. InsyaAllah, if both of us believe in Allah's faith & together pray for our own happiness. May it becomes reality.
A, please take care of yourself when I'm gone. Always remember that you will always be in my hearts. And I'm sure that I'm gonna miss you there. Don't worry, I'm not gonna love others than you. May we will unite with Allah's permission. Amin. But if you find someone who's better than me, I hope she will always make you happy. I love you (':
AHI & NFS