What would you do when you stuck between two person that hoping for your love ? Hm. That what I'm being through now. Firstly, I love this guy so much. If can I want to wait for him until he's ready. But I don't know what his true feelings to me. Does he love me the way I do ? I really want to ask him. I really wanna know. It okay if he doesn't felt the same way as long as I know the truth. And if I can be brave I want to admit that I love him more. But at the same time, there's a guy who fall in love with me. Yes, I do love him but I love the other one more. He said that he will wait for me. He said that I'm the only one that open his heart. Same as me, only H can open my heart. And I'm waiting for him. A said that he won't force me to fall in love with him. Its my right to fall in love with others. But I felt guilty. To both of them. Guilt because I lied about my own feelings. Guilt because I break my promise to wait for H. Guilt because I fall in love with other than H. How I'm gonna explain my own feelings ?
Dear H, if you want to know I love you so much. I will wait for you. But at the same time you have to tell me your true feelings so that I won't put too high hope on you. Can you do that ? I will ask you one day but not now. When the time is come. Okayh ?
And to my dear A, I'm so sorry. I don't know my own feelings. I don't whether I love you same like the way you love me. What if I'm not ? Will we still be friend ? I want to admit and tell you about this. So that you don't put too high hope on me.
And one more thing, I'm not ready to be in a relationship. I have my own reason. I am easily fall in love but not in a relationship. I hope you guys understand. I don't want to play anybody's feelings. Let me think this through. And I hope we can still be friend. Thank you.