I spent this two weeks of break with my love. And he's the first one I met after my parents. Well, that what he want. But I miss him so badly. Away for 3 months. And now I'm back for him. We always met each other. Going to each other's place, having movies & hanging out together.
I was typing this while I'm having my 'nasi goreng ayan'. You bought for me. And it makes me reminds of you. I want to spent this while 2 weeks just for you my dear. I want you to feel wanted. I don't know whether I'm using my time wisely for you. It likes you're the one who sacrifice the most.I don't know. You're too good for me. And I'm not perfect for you. Not just that, you bought so many things for me. For my birthday & our anniversary. Aww, babe how can I ever repay you ? You're the best I ever had, serious talk man.
I can never find someone like you out there. If only we can be together, forever. But it was only just a dream. I'm sorry for all my mistakes. I know I hurt you a lot, ain't I ? As I just said, I'm not too good for you. I'm just keep on hurting you, make you cry every night. Isn't that right my love ? I wish I can be a better one for you. But well, I'm just a human that fall in love with you. I didn't even once regret getting to know you, falling in love. Never. Instead of, I'm glad you're came. I'm so sorry. I love you. I really do. And I'm scared of losing you babe. Afraid to look you're happy with someone else. I need you. I love you.
I'm sorry if I'm not using this 2 weeks of my semester break wisely for you. I'm sorry I can't take a good care of you, your heart. I'm such a fool. Why its so easy for you to forgive me ? Even it was my fault but you take the blame. Its hard for me to let you go. But I know someday I have to. Because we're not meant for each other. You'll always be my SuperBarney, my Batman Barney, my penguin, my 'pendek' & my love.
:')