When I was typing about this post, I felt something different inside me. Like there's an emptiness that I felt inside. Which has been long gone. I hate that feeling. Its hurting me, killing me. Because I'm longing for the love that will never known can be mine. I do regret but its decided. And I don't want to be more than friend between you & me. Because I already see the future of me within you. Did you feel the same thing ? I wish you are. I don't know whether I can stand the emptiness of the hole inside my chest.
At the same time, when I was typing this, I'm hearing to this song, A Thousand Years. Yes, it was our song. And every words of the song I dedicated to you. Every each of it. I try my best to hide & throw this feelings away, but I failed. The time when I met you face to face, my heart beats fast, my breath uneven. Are you the one for me ? Are you the future I've been waiting for ? If only we can see the future upon us. Its the same feeling I felt when I was hearing this song. It always make me reminds of you. Did you feel the same ? I looked at you. Its like you're hiding something. Same goes to me.
Dear my future, there's nothing to be regret of. I do still love you. Even I'm taken by someone else but my soul, my heart belongs to you. Like it meant to be, is it ? I didn't even once forget about you my future. You're the one I've been waiting for all this while. I won't mind if I have to wait for a thousand years. InsyaAllah, if we are destined to be together I'll pray for it.
The day we met,
Frozen I held my breath
Right from the start
I knew that I'd found a home for my heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone?
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
Forever.